I bought the Idia.Arie cd. And I'm listening to it right now as I sit here at work. It's so good :) It's just one of those inspirational cd's that makes you think about yourself and life.

"I chose to be the best that I can be
I chose to be authentic in everything I do
My past don't dictate who I am
I chose"

And I've been feelig a little different lately. Just different somehow. Like I've learned some of the life lessons that have been following me my whole life. Of course, there are more lessons out there...but I feel less burdened somehow. I don't really know what it is.

But I leave for mission trip in two days...so of course that is really exciting :) Mission trip is always one of the best weeks of the year and I can't wait. I've had a lot of energy lately...

and last night i kind of partied. Yeah..hypocrite? maybe. It was fun I thought. I know that I don't need it...I shouldn't need it. But it just makes me diffeent. Less nervous about things. It takes down some walls. "release your inhibitions" I want to be able to be like that all the time. Free from all insecurities. Just totally in touch with myself. That is what I want. Utter peace and security to express myself for who I am. To see my heart, open and full. of love.